Will I really make it in this business? In NO way am I doubting myself or my talents BUT this business is CUT THROAT & it is true ONLY the strong survive. Coming up on two years since graduating college I constantly ask myself why do I want to do this? The answer I give myself is always -- because I truly can't picture myself doing anything else! I LOVE NEWS, local and national!
My boyfriend tells me I watch the news like its a sporting event. I HATE when people talk while I am watching the news!! When I go to the gym I listen to my music & read the caption on the TV of whatever network station they are showing.
It is something that I am truly passionate about and at this moment I feel like I am smack dab in the middle. I'm not on TV yet, but I'm around it on a daily basis. Then the frustration of the hustle & bustle of my life because I am only part-time at WPXI-TV, as a production assistant.
It's often that I have breakdowns because living like this is frustrating but I'm chasing a dream that something in my heart is telling me to keep chasing. Doesn't that mean something?
On a daily basis I thank God because HE truly keeps me. He blessed me with VERY supportive people in my life and without them I wouldn't be able to make the sacrifices that I make on a daily basis. When I think I can't do something he always proves me wrong and I can count my blessings.
There are three women in the media that to this day I look up to! They include, Robin Roberts, Oprah Winfrey and my own cousin Donna Lowry. The work that they do inspires me and to see beautiful women like them make a difference in the lives of their viewers is motivation. One day I hope and pray to be a positive asset to a community just like them.
Ever since 2008 I knew what my journey was going to entail... not the specifics BUT I had an idea. I am currently living it and of course it is harder and taking way longer than I thought.
How long do I wait? You know there comes a point when you have to be realistic with yourself and make a grown up decision... and sad to say I don't know what plan B is, haven't quite figured that out. I can't do a 9 to 5 job that would have me doing the EXACT SAME THING EVERY D*MN (excuse me) DAY! No thank you, I am not interested.
Honestly, my favorite thing about news is that it's ALWAYS something different. It feels good to be able to go to work, complete a task and not have to think about the same thing over again. Unless its a continuing (developing) story but even with that there are new details! If nothing new comes about it gets pushed to the side. Nobody wants to hear the same news every day! GIVE ME SOMETHING NEW!
So yes yesterday, today and possibly tomorrow will be not so great days but it gets like that sometimes, I guess. I tell the little voice inside of me thanks because whatever it is, its powerful because it keeps me going!
About Me
- Ashley Renee Connor
- Ashley Connor is the name. Freelance writing is my game. I have a bachelors degree in Journalism from Clarion University of Pennsylvania |S/O CU c/o 2009| -- It's now 2014 and my life has truly taken it's own path. I've learned through everything you can't always plan your next move but whatever the move is make it your best. In this day and age it's all too often we focus on what's "Hot" instead of what has been, what is and what will be. I have a lot of projects I am currently working on and while I continue to make my way I always have this blog, a place to keep me grounded in the woman I am continuously working to be. I was here.
Nice job ash! Your stuggles & long journey will soon pay off. Then you'll have an amazing story to tell. Love you much! Keep your head up sweetie!
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You are on your way! Everyday you are able to open your eyes and take a breath, HE has blessed you, and you are one more day closer to your dream! Keep pushing babe.
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Good job Ash! I understand exactly what you're going through. Im getting burnt out in the social services field but I cant think of anything else i'd rather do. Everyday is a struggle and these past two years have definitly gone by fast! My mind wonders everyday but my heart never changes so im convinced this is where I should be. Keep chasing your dreams hun, the struggle will just make you more appreciative when you reach the top! ~24 and going through a mid-life crisis (me too) lol!
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Thanks so much Britt! That is EXACTLY what I am going through! I appreciate your encouragement!!!
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