The Bad Days

Will I really make it in this business? In NO way am I doubting myself or my talents BUT this business is CUT THROAT & it is true ONLY the strong survive. Coming up on two years since graduating college I constantly ask myself why do I want to do this? The answer I give myself is always -- because I truly can't picture myself doing anything else! I LOVE NEWS, local and national!

My boyfriend tells me I watch the news like its a sporting event. I HATE when people talk while I am watching the news!! When I go to the gym I listen to my music & read the caption on the TV of whatever network station they are showing.

It is something that I am truly passionate about and at this moment I feel like I am smack dab in the middle. I'm not on TV yet, but I'm around it on a daily basis. Then the frustration of the hustle & bustle of my life because I am only part-time at WPXI-TV, as a production assistant.

It's often that I have breakdowns because living like this is frustrating but I'm chasing a dream that something in my heart is telling me to keep chasing. Doesn't that mean something?

On a daily basis I thank God because HE truly keeps me. He blessed me with VERY supportive people in my life and without them I wouldn't be able to make the sacrifices that I make on a daily basis. When I think I can't do something he always proves me wrong and I can count my blessings.

There are three women in the media that to this day I look up to! They include, Robin Roberts, Oprah Winfrey and my own cousin Donna Lowry. The work that they do inspires me and to see beautiful women like them make a difference in the lives of their viewers is motivation. One day I hope and pray to be a positive asset to a community just like them.

Ever since 2008 I knew what my journey was going to entail... not the specifics BUT I had an idea. I am currently living it and of course it is harder and taking way longer than I thought.

How long do I wait? You know there comes a point when you have to be realistic with yourself and make a grown up decision... and sad to say I don't know what plan B is, haven't quite figured that out. I can't do a 9 to 5 job that would have me doing the EXACT SAME THING EVERY D*MN (excuse me) DAY! No thank you, I am not interested.

Honestly, my favorite thing about news is that it's ALWAYS something different. It feels good to be able to go to work, complete a task and not have to think about the same thing over again. Unless its a continuing (developing) story but even with that there are new details! If nothing new comes about it gets pushed to the side. Nobody wants to hear the same news every day! GIVE ME SOMETHING NEW!

So yes yesterday, today and possibly tomorrow will be not so great days but it gets like that sometimes, I guess. I tell the little voice inside of me thanks because whatever it is, its powerful because it keeps me going!

#1 ~ Day 1 ~ My written Beginning

This is my FIRST BLOG EVER!!!!! I have wanted to start a blog for a VERY long time but wasn't sure, when? The title of my 1st blog is significant for me... in many ways this is a new beginning for me and I must admit I'm excited :)

A very special & influential person in my life has told me since 2005:

"They may not know your name today, but your going to let them know what your name is! Who are you??"

Since I was 9 years old I have wanted to pursue a career in journalism. At that moment it was probably for ALL OF THE WRONG reasons but as I grew & matured that thought turned into a passion. I have done a number of things to connect me with the right people and they have and still do guide me through this journey.

My Name Is: Ashley Renee Connor