A new chapter: Faith

It has been forever!! I'm slowly but surely getting back to the things that are important to me. I don't treat this blog as a diary so when I don't have anything of substance to say I do a lot of self evaluation and really taking a look at my self, where I'm at, what am I doing and where is my current situation going to get me. In less than a week I will be making a big change in my life. My last day at WPXI-TV will be February, 27th, 2013. It's a bitter-sweet decision for me because after two years and seven months of giving my all to this station I am walking away with the faith that God has something bigger for me.

On the "job tip" I will be entering corporate america to make my bread and butter and focus on ME. During hard economic times like now it's important to build a strong financial foundation and working the way I have been since graduating college can only last but so long. I dream of the day I can enjoy the fruits of my labor. So just like the old saying, I need to work smarter, not harder. I have a project that I am working on with a few friends of mine with similar passions as me. It is going to be my baby. I don't want to give a lot of it away but what I will say is it will involve myself, 3 other beautiful young women, and content for television that I truly believe many will be able to enjoy and take something from.

The steps I will be taking after I leave the station would not be possible if it weren't for the lessons I learned over the last three years. I am stepping out on faith because I have so much of it. I know what I am capable of doing and adding that with other women just as hard working and passionate as myself is a recipe for success.

This past month has been a whirlwind of emotions for me. The thought of being scared of the unknown or being afraid of what doors I will open keeps me awake at night more often than not. Those powerful moments that keep me awake, scare me. The idea of really following my dreams even if I fail scares me. Knowing that I will have others not want to see me succeed scares me. Having to fight even harder to make my dreams a reality scares me. Depending on myself to complete the task I set for myself scares me. Letting what scares me stop me, scares me. It's that human quality of having fear that makes me want to try and try again letting go of each fear one by one as I cross of my checklist of task to accomplish. I have had a lot of NO's but when I was given the opportunity to tell myself YES it was a rejuvenating feeling.

I feel like I am the product of the dreams of so many people who have had an impact in my life.  Now, it is time for me to put mine into action. Sharing the accomplishments of my goals with people who want to be a part of them. I am a part in the dreams of Ms. Mary Ellen (Miss Pre-Teen Pittsburgh), Coach Dawn (City All Stars), Jean Bryant (Miss Black Teenage), Chris Moore (PBMF FBUJW), Donna Lowry (WXIA-TV Kids & Schools reporter). Each of those people have made such a huge impact in my life and I want to be able to play a part in society as they have. The saying, "It takes a village to raise a child" holds so true to me. I wouldn't be the woman I am today without the influence those people have made in my life. They each had a dream and executed those dreams and I fortunately was able to experience the benefits of their dreams to get me where I am today.

I know I may not be the most liked. I know I am often misunderstood. What I want everyone to know that I am genuine and I always have good intent. Hate me or love me I'll always be me.

I am blessed. I am determined. I am human and I have faith. My success depends on me and with my drive determination and trust in the Lord I can't wait to see where this next chapter takes me.