24 Years has brought me...

Twenty four years and some days ago I was brought into this world. A day I don't remember but to many I was anxiously awaited and the nurturing process for my parents at the moment was changed. They had birthed their second child, their only girl and no one knew what was in store for me.

I can honestly remember vividly back to Kindergarten. Days before that milestone in my life are like sneak peeks. I remember places and things but nothing of substance. It's amazing how fast life moves. As a child when my birthday came along I would always think, "I wonder how my life will be when I am..." Each year the age went higher. First it was turning 16, then finally legal 18, then the unforgettable 21st birthday and now I am one year away from being a quarter of a century.

As a child if someone were to ask me where do I see myself when I am 24 years old I would have never in a million years thought here. Who could really guess something like that at such a young age. Then I think about my own mother who at my age was married with a 4 year old son and was pregnant with me.

Here I am 24 years old, college graduate, pursuing my career dreams and in a commited relationship. The complete opposite of my parents. At my young age my parents had it all together. I didn't comprehend at that time what they were doing at such a young age but never the less they were doing it.

Because of my parents at a young age I made a decision to always put myself first and to never stop working to towards goals I have set for myself. If I'm not happy how can I  make someone else happy? I know for myself every year after my birthday I always do a lot of reflecting. Things are never the same as they were the year before. I just always thank God for getting me through those changes and making me a better person.

At this moment I think the biggest thing for me to accept in life is things change and there is nothing me or anyone else can do about it. Whether it is the people, places, things or situations in life. I have come to a point where I focus on what I feel is best for me. Those who are going to be in my life will be and those who aren't won't. Life moves too fast to focus on things or people that aren't adding to my life.

The past two years of my life have been the most drastic and life changing. I have outgrown a lot of things and I don't look at life the same as I did two years ago. I have to be more sure of each decision I make from this point on. Everything is critical and time isn't waiting for me.

The biggest humbling factor for me this year has been my job search. I'll call it silent rejection because there aren't any letters of recieving my resumes and there isn't notification of rejection. The rejection could very well be they just didn't get to my envelope or email that stacks up in the office of some news director or human resources manager. Despite that I continue to apply. I know when my time comes it will be at the perfect time and it isn't for me to know when that will be.

In the meantime I have stumbled upon some great opportunities that continue to give me an edge. Those are the blessings that God sends my way to constantly let me know he has my steps ordered and this is what I am meant to do.

Despite the numerous discouraging instances in life I take those with a grain of salt and keep on trucking through.

These 24 years of living life I have experienced some very beautiful things! I am a daughter, sister, friend, aunt and girlfriend all of those which shape the person I am today and to all of those things I am greatful for.