tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-45087165472970147652024-03-08T10:54:33.170-08:00My JourneyYoung woman on the move!Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-49829838494289191662013-02-21T14:20:00.001-08:002013-02-21T14:20:52.186-08:00A new chapter: FaithIt has been forever!! I'm slowly but surely getting back to the things that are important to me. I don't treat this blog as a diary so when I don't have anything of substance to say I do a lot of self evaluation and really taking a look at my self, where I'm at, what am I doing and where is my current situation going to get me. In less than a week I will be making a big change in my life. My last day at WPXI-TV will be February, 27th, 2013. It's a bitter-sweet decision for me because after two years and seven months of giving my all to this station I am walking away with the faith that God has something bigger for me.<br />
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On the "job tip" I will be entering corporate america to make my bread and butter and focus on ME. During hard economic times like now it's important to build a strong financial foundation and working the way I have been since graduating college can only last but so long. I dream of the day I can enjoy the fruits of my labor. So just like the old saying, I need to work smarter, not harder. I have a project that I am working on with a few friends of mine with similar passions as me. It is going to be my baby. I don't want to give a lot of it away but what I will say is it will involve myself, 3 other beautiful young women, and content for television that I truly believe many will be able to enjoy and take something from.<br />
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The steps I will be taking after I leave the station would not be possible if it weren't for the lessons I learned over the last three years. I am stepping out on faith because I have so much of it. I know what I am capable of doing and adding that with other women just as hard working and passionate as myself is a recipe for success.<br />
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This past month has been a whirlwind of emotions for me. The thought of being scared of the unknown or being afraid of what doors I will open keeps me awake at night more often than not. Those powerful moments that keep me awake, scare me. The idea of really following my dreams even if I fail scares me. Knowing that I will have others not want to see me succeed scares me. Having to fight even harder to make my dreams a reality scares me. Depending on myself to complete the task I set for myself scares me. Letting what scares me stop me, scares me. It's that human quality of having fear that makes me want to try and try again letting go of each fear one by one as I cross of my checklist of task to accomplish. I have had a lot of NO's but when I was given the opportunity to tell myself YES it was a rejuvenating feeling.<br />
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I feel like I am the product of the dreams of so many people who have had an impact in my life. Now, it is time for me to put mine into action. Sharing the accomplishments of my goals with people who want to be a part of them. I am a part in the dreams of Ms. Mary Ellen (Miss Pre-Teen Pittsburgh), Coach Dawn (City All Stars), Jean Bryant (Miss Black Teenage), Chris Moore (PBMF FBUJW), Donna Lowry (WXIA-TV Kids & Schools reporter). Each of those people have made such a huge impact in my life and I want to be able to play a part in society as they have. The saying, "It takes a village to raise a child" holds so true to me. I wouldn't be the woman I am today without the influence those people have made in my life. They each had a dream and executed those dreams and I fortunately was able to experience the benefits of their dreams to get me where I am today.<br />
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I know I may not be the most liked. I know I am often misunderstood. What I want everyone to know that I am genuine and I always have good intent. Hate me or love me I'll always be me.<br />
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I am blessed. I am determined. I am human and I have faith. My success depends on me and with my drive determination and trust in the Lord I can't wait to see where this next chapter takes me.<br />
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<br />Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-47577633913008444282012-09-07T08:11:00.003-07:002012-09-07T08:11:50.036-07:00VOTE! Well, it has been a long time since I've logged on to this blog. I felt it was very appropriate for me to finally post something before I have one of those milestone Birthday's pass. In a week I will be 25 years old. I can't believe it. More than ever now I have such a strong sense of self and what I want out of life. It's been a trying past six months but as I always say, "Giving up isn't an option."<br />
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Well what do I want to talk about? This upcoming presidential election. After watching the Republicans and the Democrats national conventions I couldn't be more ready to for one, get my on camera career on the move. It's clear to me that politics are my thing. I am more than interested in them and I hate that so many aren't aware of what is going on.Secondly, I want to make a difference in how my community views our government and how we can make things work for us. We all know there are lies and stretched truths that come from both sides. What is important is that people hear both sides and make the best decision for yourself and CHECK THE FACTS! They are out there!<br />
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We aren't too far away from the times when the only people who could vote were white men. Many of us still have our grandparents who witnessed times like that. What I want to address is the people who chose to not vote. My question for you is, why not? So many people have fought and/or died for this right that truly does make a difference. Have you ever thought that you don't see results that positively effect you because you don't vote? The people who are catered to are the majority of who votes. Of course you have the people with BIG money but that is only 1% of the population. The government does what we LET them do. It's clear and simple. They make it so confusing so YOU don't get involved.<br />
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When thinking about what I wanted to write in this blog on politics I wanted to make sure that I gave a non-bias thought on voting. Your choice, is your choice but either way you need to make one. Money makes the world go 'round and where is our money? In the hands of some politician. (No, not literally but in my opinion technically.) You see those deductions on your pay stub every payday! Whether you vote or not they WILL take your money and use it how they please. So why not take a stand on how that is used. We won't be afforded some of the things that our grandparents had the opportunity to take care of. Retirement for our generation is a long time away. God willing we make it to that point. Changes being made about your life and what you can do with it are made by people who will never come to you and ask, "Does this work for you?" So how do you let them know if it works? Vote them IN or OUT of office!! Again, these people are there because WE put them there.<br />
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For me, voting is very important. I have voted in every election since I turned 18. Yes, every year I am in some voter booth casting my vote!! The local politics are even more important because that effects you directly. The president has a small impact on your immediate life. We normally don't feel those decisions until months, even years after changes are made.<br />
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So, overall, I just want you to know that your vote is important! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE get out and vote November 6th!! Get your PHOTO ID! You have TWO DISTINCT DIFFERENCES TO DECIDE ON! Take your pick!Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-64335866969152837722012-03-30T15:37:00.000-07:002012-03-30T15:37:10.573-07:00True Feelings in 2012Over the past month I feel like I have looked at things in the world a lot differently. I see how divided our country is, a place that is suppose to be the land of the <strike>free</strike>, the <strike>equal </strike> and people living <strike>The AMERICAN DREAM</strike>. <br />
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I believe in me and what I stand for. I was blessed with a very outspoken personality and I will never be ashamed of it. That saying, "If you stand for nothing, you'll fall for anything" is really ringing a lot of bells for me. We'll never live in a world where everyone will like one another or agree on every matter we come across. I ranted in February about Black History month and where I feel my culture is going and the issues I have with the way people are so I will not dwell on that anymore. I said it and all I can do is pray and actively make a difference with things I see going wrong. I am only one person but I know I make a difference to people I deal with in my life.<br />
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I have a passion for working with teenagers but it isn't something I want to do as a career. I like to be a mentor and a support system to those around me. No, I'm not rich I can't financially help people but what I am is an honest and genuine person. I want the best for anyone I know. I am the biggest cheerleader for all who are near to me, it just comes naturally ;-)<br />
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It saddens me to see how quick people can be to put others down, especially when they are acting in their best interest. We live in a world where we are too quick to judge people, especially someone we don't know, in my opinion your only slighting yourself. <br />
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Respect is another thing that has gone out the window. I come in contact with people that I know have no respect for the people around them, it disgusts me, I had to learn how to deal with that. How? I act like they don't exist. If I don't exist, neither do you. I keep my mouth shut, I pray they keep theirs shut and we keep it moving. <br />
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I guess this is the part of me saying I have tough skin. Yes I cry, I am the biggest crybaby! My older brother has told me that for as long as I remember. I don't mind, though. Once my tears have been shed I feel like a weight is lifted off me. It is my way of coping with anger, fear, pain and sometimes happiness. <br />
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Currently, our country is currently debating over the killing of Trayvon Martin. I have expressed my opinions numerous times and they still remain the same. All I want to say in this situation is there is wrong and there is right. There are 3 sides to every story and in this case we will only hear one becasue the other person can no longer speak for themself and there are no witnesses to tell the truth. There is video out of George Zimmerman after the "altercation" he says he had with Martin, looking as if nothing was wrong. No blood, no ripped shirt, no broken nose... I can go on. Things like this happen way too much and there has to come a time when injustices like this stop. That city is crying for help because Trayvon Martin isn't the first and unfortunately he won't be the last. Don't fight for race, fight for equality. I already know what it is, I don't need anyone to tell me differently. My eyes and ears are open! Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-9998461605148387472012-02-29T15:35:00.000-08:002012-02-29T15:35:40.768-08:00Going With the Flow :-)So lately I have been getting to my blogs at the end of the month. Thank goodness for the leap year becasue I have an extra day to get something up here this month. <br />
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Sooo whats new!? Not too much... as I tell everyone else same 'ol ish, just a different day. BUT things are GREAT! I have learned to realize things will never go as planned, no matter how much I try. I take things day by day and being happy with where I am at, at the moment is all I need. I can't worry about the days that haven't come. <br />
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My freelance writing has really been taking off. My editor has been throwing me stories every chance she gets. I have always wanted to pursue being a freelance writer along with being a journalist and I am proud to have started that part of my career. It keeps me positive and I feel good about the work that I do. I'll have to post links to my stories on here once they are published. Everything is about community and the positives things going on in the Western Pennsylvania region. <br />
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My job search is still ongoing {BLAH}. Yea I'm so over it but giving up like I always say is <strike>JUST NOT AN OPTION</strike>!!! I know God has something in the works for me and it really sucks being on the side of not knowing. I seriously think I give God a show with my anticipation. I know he laughs at me... I can say the darndest things lol. He is making me stronger, though it seems like the finish line is so far away. I see the light but it's still in the distance. When I need it I always have my Angels on earth. The write words, text, email, or phone call always seems to make its way to me right when I need it. Because He is always on time :-) I heard some news that I didn't want to hear but I took it with a grain of salt. Knowing it wasn't me or anything I did for the outcome that came to be helped me get through the news. I know the things that are happening for me are for a reason. The day I find out, I swear I'm going to do cartwheels everywhere I go! <br />
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It's Pisces season!!! Let me tell you I LOVE me a Pisces. Some of the closest people to me are Pisces! They know who they are ;-) Happy Birthday to you all, I LOVE LOVE LOVE you soooo much. Thanks for being you XOXO (Dontae, Alicia, Shantell, Sydni G., & Ambuler)<br />
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<u>February - Black History Month ( Yea I had to say something about it)</u><br />
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You know, I like to watch TV during Black History Month. There is always a good PBS documentary on or some show discussing Black History and it always amazes me how ignorant our society can be today. <br />
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So many people fought for our rights to have a voice and be proud of who we are as a race and so many people take those rights for granted. Of course something like jail or even death can take all of those rights away but it shouldn't have to come to that. It's clear we are an intelligent group of people and I hope to one day be able to make a big impact in the world because I feel we need to do better. <br />
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I had a conversation with one of my favorite Pisces friends (Alicia) and she was telling me about her marketing company, Pure Ambition, and why she wanted to start something up like this. One things she shared was how we were fortunate to grow up and have women who look just like us to impact our lives in such a major way. Unfortunately things like that aren't available to the youth anymore. <br />
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The saying, "It takes a village to raise a child," is so true to me. I was blessed to have parents keep me grounded along with men and women who helped to support me as I became a woman. At some point we have to get back to that. I just hope it is sooner than later.<br />
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So this was one of my random blogs. I don't really have a purpose or one idea I am trying to get across except, I'm going with the flow and do what make you happy. My immediate needs are always met because I serve an amazing God.Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-66953940525559029302012-01-30T14:20:00.000-08:002012-01-30T14:21:57.624-08:00Happy New Year... What a month!Well for starters can I say January has been quite a month!? Mostly good things ;-)<br />
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I hope to finally get that start on-air in the TV business that I have been working towards. My new resume reel is finished and all I need now is that opportunity to expand on my desire of being a journalist. Here is the YouTube Link:<br />
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<a href="http://youtu.be/R90-P_Cat2Y" target="_blank">Ashley Connor 2012 Reel</a><br />
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I'm truly proud of the product that I delivered on my new reel. One thing I do not like to do is brag, I like my work to speak for itself. I do a lot of things on my "off" time and this is a BIG reason why I am always so busy. Since none of my jobs involve me working on this part of my career I have to do it on my own time. It know it will all pay off one day. I did get the opportunity of having my first interview at a TV station about a week ago for Reporter/Producer job. I will say it went well and no matter what the outcome is I know I made an impression, it's up to God now if he feels that is where I should get my start. In the mean time I'll leave it all up to him.<br />
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I also received an email from my editor for the magazine I freelance for and she commended me on the improvement in my writing from when I started in September. It helped me realize the time I put in to perfect my craft is working. I take pride in the things that I do and I never want it to seem like I am <strike>"half assing"</strike> with my work.<br />
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Another great thing this month was being able to see my cousin, Donna. She is a reporter in Atlanta, GA and also one of the reason I want to pursue this career as a journalist. I look up to her so much and it's a blessing to have someone in this business that I know will be honest with me. She tells me things I may not want to hear but need to hear and keeps me on my toes. I haven't seen her in a couple of years so it was nice that we were able to see each other for a brief moment. It's motivation when someone who has had a career like Donna continues to encourage me and lets me know I can do this.<br />
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I've been told a number of times by my friends and family that 2012 is going to be my year. To me it is very cliche but those words I will say help me stay focused on my goal. I pray that 2012 will be a life changing year for me and although I know every moment won't bring a smile to my face it will add to the seasoned woman that I am. My trials and tribulations are not over and my pursuit to being a journalist is still underway. I welcome everything that this new year has to offer me. What I will do is stay encouraged.Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-64654378775974818122011-12-28T15:14:00.000-08:002011-12-28T15:14:38.128-08:00My Journey: Goodbye 2011 >>>> Hello 2012<a href="http://areneejourney.blogspot.com/2011/12/goodbye-2011-hello-2012.html?spref=bl">My Journey: Goodbye 2011 >>>> Hello 2012</a>: Out with the old and in with the new! That seems to be the general mindset of most when a new year is upon us. Hence my urge to give my blog...Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-10189954675637528302011-12-28T15:11:00.000-08:002011-12-28T15:11:40.973-08:00Goodbye 2011 >>>> Hello 2012Out with the old and in with the new! That seems to be the general mindset of most when a new year is upon us. Hence my urge to give my blog a face lift. It works with my theme for this blog, "Out with the Old in with the NEW!" The last design <strike>wasn't me</strike>... so I fixed it! It is a work in progress but the look now is DEFINITELY more ME :-)<br />
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So..... how should I start this one? Of course! I have to reflect on this past year! I started this blog in March of this year and I must say it was ONE of my best decisions in 2011. I was able to show a different side of myself to those around me. The responses that I get from my blog are wonderful, I truly appreciate all of the words of encouragement. So first and foremost I thank whoever you are reading this right now. Your support is never unnoticed and little do you know when life gets hard I think of people like you, encouraging me to keep striving. I like to consider myself a pretty independent woman but I wouldn't be anything without God, my family and friends supporting me every step of the way. I couldn't thank you enough!<br />
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When I take the time to realize the wisdom I have gained this year alone, it amazes me! I'm nowhere near the Ashley I was a year ago and to anticipate the new lessons that 2012 will bring only makes me more eager to live life. I appreciate the good and bad in life because of the lesson(s) learned; it is a great aspect to living life. I'm only 24 and I am so sure of myself and what I want to do that I have a hard time being patient. <br />
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2011 has been a whirlwind! Filled with ups and downs, certainly the ups outweigh the downs. I gained new friends and let go of some of the old. I learned more than likely things will <u>NOT</u> go as planned and to only focus on the things I have control over. I gained a new outlook on <strong>perception</strong> and <strong>reality</strong> because there IS a BIG difference (That statement STILL hits me like I never heard it before). I also learned that I can't force things to happen, as much as I may try to move on something if it is not in God's plan there is nothing I can do but have patience and let time take its course. I have come a long way and I know I still have a ways to go, I'm on the right path though. <br />
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As we bring in 2012 I just want to say no matter what you do in your life at the end of the day YOU are your number one priority (unless you have a kid). Every decision you make has a consequence and whatever the consequence make sure you can handle it and you can look yourself in the mirror afterwards. If it doesn't feel right DO NOT DO IT! Be happy, Be healthy and BE YOU! Happy New Years!Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-61117149231128283992011-12-02T14:57:00.000-08:002011-12-02T14:57:51.083-08:00This thing called, LIFE!I'm excited! <br />
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Well my future of course! I have a lot of things going on in my life right now and as I have said before I know that God is truly guiding my steps. Things have been going great at work and I feel a lot of progress with everything I am doing. This weekend is going to be BIG. I'll be finishing up my new resume tape and pumping it out to TV stations all over the place. <br />
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My hunger for success is only growing and I am working hard continuously to make sure I don't lose sight of what the BIG picture is. It's amazing how God moves in my life and the people he has introduced me to in 2011. Most people that know me, know that I am not too open to just meeting random people and calling them my friends and forming a relationship with them outside of my work environment or wherever I come in contact with people at. What God has done to change my perspective with new people I come across is amazing. He knew what I needed. I'm where I am at today because this is what he has for me. Realizing that I am being prepared for something that I have no clue what it is makes me even more focused. I am open and ready to accept whatever is to come. I don't know when or how but I have faith that it's coming and God never lets me down.<br />
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The fact that it is December already is wild! This year flew by so fast... and from what I hear it only goes faster. This May will be three years since I graduated from Clarion and in June it will be seven since I graduated high school. Where did the time go? Those time frames right there are reason enough to make sure EVERYTHING I do has purpose and is getting me closer to my ultimate goal. I re-tweeted a tweet from a friend that said, "When things don't add up in your life, start subtracting". In 2011 I did A LOT of subtracting, I can't say that it was easy or I am done but the progress that I made this year was necessary and I couldn't be more at peace with life and the decisions I made.<br />
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My journey is far from over but I have to say the process is trying, scary and confusing but I'm learning every step of the way. I constantly evaluate the things I do in life and writing this blog has been a tremendous amount of help. I occasionally read through different blogs just to remember and learn from moments that I have had so far. Although things have been going good it take one second for things to go bad. I know it's going to happen and I welcome the bad times too.<br />
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I wouldn't be the person I am today if I didn't go through the things I have gone through. <br />
Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-59152496262288173312011-11-07T15:29:00.000-08:002011-11-07T15:29:55.717-08:00A sense of claritySo my last blog that I attempted to write last week was deleted as I was finishing it up. Talk about PISSED OFF!! I literally prayed that it was saved and would come back... well that didn't happen. I then thought to myself well maybe that blog wasn't supposed to be shared and that was God's way of stopping me. <br />
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One thing about my blogs is that they come off the top of my head. When I sit down to write I always have a motive; there is some kind of message that I want to share but it is never complete. It works better for me to just type away and then go through everything and organize my random thoughts. <br />
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I am such a random person... I think of the oddest things at the most random times and more than likely if someone is around me I will let it all out. It's why I love to be able to come to my blog and just express myself. No holding back just telling you what I think and what is weighing on my heart. Take it or leave it... either way I don't care.<br />
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I couldn't begin to tell you where my last blog began and where it ended. I'm pretty sure this blog will entail a few things that were in my last blog because if I thought that way then I more than likely feel the same way today....<br />
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<a name='more'></a>My main priority is focusing on my journalism career. This journey has been hard, long(Still going), good on some days, bad on others and just plain old STRESSFUL. From not having time off for myself, school loans and bills, sometimes it feels as if life is just piling up on me. Then I have to tell myself I am NOT the only person in this kind of situation. I have to be thankful that I can focus on just myself. <br />
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Focusing on ME was probably the best thing I could have done for myself this year. That included me removing myself from different situations that I just didn't feel good about anymore. Some things were harder to do than others but today I can say that all of it was necessary.<br />
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I'm still learning new things about myself... things that I like and things I don't. Some things I used to do I have no interest in doing anymore. Of course, that is life and it is called growing; everyone goes through it -- its just a matter of when and how.<br />
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Back in September I stumbled across an opportunity to do freelance reporting for In Community Magazine, a family-oriented, informative community magazine. The communities cover Western Pennsylvania; places like Woodland Hills, Penn Hills, McKeesport, Murrysville and Irwin are a few places where I have covered stories. This opportunity couldn't have come at a better time. On top of my TV news aspirations I have a love of writing. The BIG dream is to one day be able to submit stories to magazines like, Essence. Although I have some time before I get to that place in my life there is nothing wrong with dreaming, it ads to my dream that my freelance career has started.<br />
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Over the past 4 or 5 months I have probably been tried the most thus far in my life. I know that I am being tested and I pray to God EVERYDAY to keep me sane and humble. Becoming sure of myself and the things that I am pursuing has built my confidence even more. I learned when you have people or things around you that brings you down you have to learn how to let go or you'll never grow. Staying where I am now is NOT an option. This moment in my life is a stepping stone and every lesson that has come my way I have taken a lot of mental notes and I use them on a daily basis. As my mom always tells me don't let people get the best of me and to always be myself.<br />
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I speak my mind and standing up for myself is never a question. At times I feel I have been put in positions where people may not have expected me to speak up and say what is on my mind. All I ask for is respect because I give respect to everyone. When that boundary is crossed it never ends good. Learning to pick my battles has been key to a lot of the decisions I have made this year. Some things are better left unsaid.<br />
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All in all I feel a sense of clarity at the current moment. I have a set of things that I am working on and that is all I can put my focus on. Anything or anyone that distracts me from the goals I am trying to reach can have a first class ticket out of my life. <br />
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It's that simple.Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-14542423821973139112011-09-26T15:49:00.000-07:002011-09-26T15:49:14.408-07:0024 Years has brought me...Twenty four years and some days ago I was brought into this world. A day I don't remember but to many I was anxiously awaited and the nurturing process for my parents at the moment was changed. They had birthed their second child, their only girl and no one knew what was in store for me.<br />
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I can honestly remember vividly back to Kindergarten. Days before that milestone in my life are like sneak peeks. I remember places and things but nothing of substance. It's amazing how fast life moves. As a child when my birthday came along I would always think, "I wonder how my life will be when I am..." Each year the age went higher. First it was turning 16, then finally legal 18, then the unforgettable 21st birthday and now I am one year away from being a quarter of a century. <br />
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As a child if someone were to ask me where do I see myself when I am 24 years old I would have never in a million years thought here. Who could really guess something like that at such a young age. Then I think about my own mother who at my age was married with a 4 year old son and was pregnant with me. <br />
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Here I am 24 years old, college graduate, pursuing my career dreams and in a commited relationship. The complete opposite of my parents. At my young age my parents had it all together. I didn't comprehend at that time what they were doing at such a young age but never the less they were doing it. <br />
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Because of my parents at a young age I made a decision to always put myself first and to never stop working to towards goals I have set for myself. If I'm not happy how can I make someone else happy? I know for myself every year after my birthday I always do a lot of reflecting. Things are never the same as they were the year before. I just always thank God for getting me through those changes and making me a better person.<br />
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At this moment I think the biggest thing for me to accept in life is things change and there is nothing me or anyone else can do about it. Whether it is the people, places, things or situations in life. I have come to a point where I focus on what I feel is best for me. Those who are going to be in my life will be and those who aren't won't. Life moves too fast to focus on things or people that aren't adding to my life.<br />
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The past two years of my life have been the most drastic and life changing. I have outgrown a lot of things and I don't look at life the same as I did two years ago. I have to be more sure of each decision I make from this point on. Everything is critical and time isn't waiting for me. <br />
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The biggest humbling factor for me this year has been my job search. I'll call it silent rejection because there aren't any letters of recieving my resumes and there isn't notification of rejection. The rejection could very well be they just didn't get to my envelope or email that stacks up in the office of some news director or human resources manager. Despite that I continue to apply. I know when my time comes it will be at the perfect time and it isn't for me to know when that will be.<br />
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In the meantime I have stumbled upon some great opportunities that continue to give me an edge. Those are the blessings that God sends my way to constantly let me know he has my steps ordered and this is what I am meant to do. <br />
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Despite the numerous discouraging instances in life I take those with a grain of salt and keep on trucking through. <br />
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These 24 years of living life I have experienced some very beautiful things! I am a daughter, sister, friend, aunt and girlfriend all of those which shape the person I am today and to all of those things I am greatful for.Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-48955307650794692732011-08-03T14:55:00.000-07:002011-08-03T14:55:00.608-07:00Life LessonsSo I'm long overdue for this... wasn't really sure what I wanted to write about next.<br />
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The past few months have been a whirlwind for me. I constantly recognize a change in myself and for me I feel it is for the better. I'm becoming more blunt and I don't hold my tongue. Sometimes things might not come out the best way but if I said it and however I said it, it needed to be said. I have realized I won't put up with anything I don't want to and some people can agree and others won't... I don't really care! <br />
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I am currently going through one of the hardest moments in my life. I have a constant drive and it is honestly ALL I AM FOCUSED ON. What I am going through I know takes TIME. So my patience, humbleness and faith are all I have to get me through. <br />
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STRESS... I have enough of it so I have chose to<strike> eliminate</strike> the things in my life that stress me out that I have control over. What put the icing on the cake for me was when I went to church this past Sunday, July 31, 2011. For one I haven't been to church in a long time and that was also something else that was LONG overdue for me to do. It was a message that I needed to hear and it just gave me more confidence in the decisions that I have been making. The scripture was taken from 2 Kings Chapter 4: 1-7. It was a story of a woman who had two problems, one she couldn't change and the other she could. She asked a servant of the Lord for help and what he did was give her advice & not the answer. She listened and the problem that she could change was solved, the other was a dead situation and she had to make due with what she had. When something is dead and there is nothing you can do about it you have to let go. Holding on to something that isn't helping you or is bringing you down only holds you back. When you have a situation that you can do something about you fix it! The message I heard touched me and it gave me a sense of peace with a lot of things in my life. As much as I stress I always get through and when I do make a decision that may not have been the best one I learn from it. <br />
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I have learned to appreciate things and people for what it may be and I can't expect too much from anyone but myself. People change and that is life because we all have a different outlook on what we call life. At the end of the day I learned a lesson and that is always be true to myself and I don't have to please anyone but myself & God.Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-77097218898309646882011-06-08T15:00:00.000-07:002011-06-08T15:00:44.403-07:00Rambling thoughts... I need to get this off my chest!I have a million thoughts but I don't know how to make sense of them....<br />
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& ideas that I don't know how to organize or put the pieces together at this moment...<br />
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Will my thoughts ever make sense? <br />
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I always feel like something is missing...<br />
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I have a place I want to be but the process to get there isn't exactly what I expected... <br />
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I wonder if my dreams are going to come true? <br />
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How am I going to make it?<br />
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What am I going to do with my life?<br />
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Why me?<br />
Will it get better?<br />
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Is this it?<br />
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How did I get myself here?<br />
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Why did I do that?<br />
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Will it ever make sense?<br />
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Will I get to the moment when I can look back and say "That's what that was for"?<br />
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Am I tough enough?<br />
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My thoughts are <strike>confused </strike> BUT my drive is <strong>NOT</strong>! <br />
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The curve balls life throws at me makes me think about each and every decision I have made so far. Some were great and others were not so great. <br />
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My mind has been on a roller coaster & I couldn't even bring myself to make a complete thought. I even had to start this blog with questions and statements because I have no clue where I want to go with it. Therefore I am going to ramble.<br />
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One thing I do know is that I had to express something because I am going crazy keeping some things bottled up. <br />
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I can say I am thankful for my support system because even when I don't believe in myself they believe in me. <br />
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One of my problems is worrying about too many people and not enough on myself. As much as I love to love and be the best friend I can be at some point I have to be selfish and worry about myself and myself only. <br />
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Lately I have been saying this statement on a regular basis "I am ready to get out of Pittsburgh". I LOVE my city and what it has done for me but for me to do what I want to do I have to go. Hopefully God has a plan for me to come back & bring what I have learned back home and MAKE A DIFFERENCE. <br />
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When you are unhappy with where you are at you should do whatever is necessary to change what needs to be changed. I like to be happy so I have to do whatever I have to do to stay happy. The career path that I have chosen is well known for making people unhappy. I know a lot of miserable people and I NEVER want to be that way. It just isn't healthy if you ask me. <br />
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I'm the type of person that likes new things. I am not afraid of change or to take on a challenge to embark on something new at any moment possible. <br />
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I have always had an imagination and I believe that is from my love of reading. <br />
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I am somebody; a lot of people just don't know it yet and that is fine because they aren't ready and I don't believe I have done enough. <br />
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Change for the better not for the worse but whose the judge as to what is better or worse? Throughout my life I have met a lot of people and some of those people have achieved the things they have always wanted to achieve but with that came a new "person". Yes people grow up, change, grow apart and move on but one thing I have promised myself is to never feel like I am above or better than the next person. It grinds my gears when I run into someone I have known for years and to act like I am the scum of the earth blows my mind. I just tell myself that is their problem... I'll never let a little bit of fame get to my head. My mom always told me "What God gives, he can take away", so in other words stay humble no matter what your circumstances are.<br />
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This blogging experience has brought something different out of me. I have always spoken whats on my mind but the extent that I do now shocks me at times. Sometimes I can't believe the things I say. <br />
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I'm an emotional wreck... I can literally cry at the drop of dime! NO I'm not soft I can take a lot. Honestly I probably cry more because I am happy/excited rather than crying because I am sad. Sometimes I cry as I blog because I am putting so much of ME into this. How can I truly be me if I'm not passionate about whatever it is I do?<br />
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I do not condone doing things that make me miserable. If I do I'll quit at the drop of a dime... I think happiness is one of my number one priorities and I don't take it for granted. <br />
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As I pray to God every day and ask him to guide me I believe and have faith that he will never leave me astray. I chose a way of life that forces me to struggle/grind/hustle whatever you want to call it and I can say when I think I am going to fall he has always been there to catch me. With all of my RAMBLING THOUGHTS I know one day it will all makes sense, even when I don't want to believe it! For that I THANK GOD! <br />
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To my family & friends words can't express how much you mean to me (grabbing tissue because the tears have began to fall). I am truly at a point in my life where I can't tell you exactly what I am doing but I am doing something and the support you give me is NEVER unnoticed. I am far from where I want to be but the prayers and advice are so uplifting I can't wait to make you even more proud. <br />
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Mom, WOW! You are SUPERWOMAN! I wouldn't be where I am without you. You keep me grounded and remind me that I can do whatever I put my mind to. You are the epitome of what a mom should be and I love you for being all you can be for me.<br />
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Dontae I don't think there are enough beautiful words to explain what you mean to me. On top of being my significant other you have become my best friend and I know that you and I together make such a statement. I can't wait to see the amazing things that we achieve together, God willing. You may not know how much you motivate me to continue to strive to be the best woman I can be but you do and for that I am forever thankful.<br />
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Ok Ok Ok yea I got emotional but I've been holding a lot in so I had to express myself! That's what this blog is for right? Everything isn't for everyone and if you understand that about life I think everyone can appreciate it more! My confusion and the lack of ability to conform all of my thought into a complete one I think I expressed what I needed to get things off my chest!<br />
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WHEW! *Wipes forehead & eyes* :)Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-5574182607755542712011-05-10T15:22:00.000-07:002011-05-10T15:22:05.448-07:00Respect should be Reciprocated: Not a One Way street<strong>THE GOLDEN RULE - Do unto others as you would have for them to do to you</strong><br />
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To this day I can't fathom why in the work place not matter your position people can't respect one another. I know we don't live in a perfect world and I know that everyone is not at the same maturity level but there has to come a point where certain things are not tolerated. <br />
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My problem today is RESPECT. <br />
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One thing I will say about myself is I will always hold myself to a standard where I give others around me the SAME respect I want and expect in return. When you cross that line I have a problem and I am not the girl who will let someone disrespect me. I have never been okay with it and I will never be! What I also won't do is let someone who has disrespected me take me out of my character but I will let you know I will not stand for it. <br />
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Something I NEVER want to do is use "The Black Card" but sometimes its hard when you know it's being used against you. In a work environment where I am the ONLY black person in the building until talent shows up normally is not a hard thing until their is an issue. Who (those that don't look like me) wouldn't believe "The black girl acted unprofessional" because I sternly made a statement to get someone to quit yelling at me & it worked. Did I intimidate you? I believe I did! I came at you correct and let you know what you will not do to me!<br />
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I appreciate the fact that I have a job where two of my mentors are there and I can always trust to go to them and vent and let out my frustrations. Especially working in this industry where these people can be nasty. Its easy for me to get all "sister girl" and tell everyone what I believe they need to hear but that would only give them what they expect from someone WHO LOOKS LIKE ME. I guess it just upsets me more that I don't have any voice besides mine to stand up for me when I work the shift that I work so I feel like its me against the world. Its funny to see people pull out anything to make me look like the bad person. I know I didn't do anything wrong and if it ever came down to it I know in my heart I did the right thing.<br />
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I believe if you let one person walk all over you they will continue to do so along with their friends who watch it happen as well. You can be the CEO of a company but you better believe if you don't respect the person who is at the bottom in someway it can and will bite you in the butt! It is true GOD DOESN'T LIKE UGLY!<br />
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No matter how far in life you get you should never burn bridges with people! <br />
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Simply stated all I ask for is RESPECT!<br />
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"I got a dream thats worth more than my reality & pride that's worth more than a salary" -Big Sean (rapper)<br />
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"Sometimes I feel I'm working just to work harder. And then work harder than who worked the hardest. Man the life of a workaholic .You either on your work or just workin on it." <br />
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Lately I have been really feeling a mixtape by rapper, Big Sean. I heard both of these lines in his song, Final Hour and I hit the rewind button multiple times. The first time was becasue I wanted to make sure I heard right but everytime after that it was becasue those two lines explained the exact feeling that I have about life. I work a lot of hours between two jobs and at the end of the day I know where I am going. As hectic as my life may seem at the moment I have some kind of plan. I can't say I have the exact plan because only one person knows that. I just know that I have too much talent built up inside of me and it will go to use! <br />
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Since Friday, April 29, 2010 I can honestly say work at the TV station has been momorable, from the Royal Wedding of Harry & Kate (Catherine) to the most recent news of Osama Bin Laden's death. I can't explain the energy I had being able to watch things as they were happening and being in the mix. Of course it would have been better to be the one actually telling the story but for now I will take it for what it is. I appreciate being able to watch the professionals locally & nationally cover such impacting stories in our lifetime. It may seem a little corny but to me its a big deal. <br />
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It feels good knowing that I am pursuing something that I am passionate about. I appreciate these moments in my life that I believe God is continuing to show me that this is what I was born to do. <br />
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HOROSCOPES = DRIVE ASHLEY CRAZY LoL <br />
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I am a BIG BIG BIG fan of zodiac signs... I don't care what other people think about it BUT what I do know is that it is apart of my motivation. Besides prayer that I do on a constant basis to keep me sane & balanced my horoscope for the day can surely put fire under my @$$! I have bad days, you know and sometimes that is the pick-me-up that I need. I can take it for what it is and keep it moving!<br />
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What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is FOR us, WHO can be against us? - Romans 8:31<br />
I didn't understand the power of this scripture until my sophomore year in college. At Clarion University I went through A LOT but I think that is apart of the whole undergrad process. <br />
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I went to college a 17 year old girl and graduated a 21 year old woman with a completely different outlook on life. The things I learned about myself during that time was priceless. I truly believe those moments showed me I can get through ANYTHING! Growing up I was always told that everyone will not like me and things won't be handed to me, which is life. While in college I experienced it first hand but I made it through. Completing my undergraduate degree on top of finding out who I really was and what I stood for was not easy. <br />
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That scripture is something I always keep near to my heart because it's true.<br />
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Although if you ask me today, I know I'm going to make it because I have faith in ME, Ashley Renee Connor.Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-90905932972651504382011-03-30T14:15:00.000-07:002011-03-30T14:15:58.479-07:00The Bad DaysWill I really make it in this business? In NO way am I doubting myself or my talents BUT this business is CUT THROAT & it is true ONLY the strong survive. Coming up on two years since graduating college I constantly ask myself why do I want to do this? The answer I give myself is always -- because I truly can't picture myself doing anything else! I LOVE NEWS, local and national! <br />
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My boyfriend tells me I watch the news like its a sporting event. I HATE when people talk while I am watching the news!! When I go to the gym I listen to my music & read the caption on the TV of whatever network station they are showing. <br />
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It is something that I am truly passionate about and at this moment I feel like I am smack dab in the middle. I'm not on TV yet, but I'm around it on a daily basis. Then the frustration of the hustle & bustle of my life because I am only <em>part-time at WPXI-TV, as a production assistant.</em> <br />
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It's often that I have breakdowns because living like this is frustrating but I'm chasing a dream that something in my heart is telling me to keep chasing. Doesn't that mean something? <br />
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On a daily basis I thank God because HE truly keeps me. He blessed me with VERY supportive people in my life and without them I wouldn't be able to make the sacrifices that I make on a daily basis. When I think I can't do something he always proves me wrong and I can count my blessings. <br />
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There are three women in the media that to this day I look up to! They include, Robin Roberts, Oprah Winfrey and my own cousin Donna Lowry. The work that they do inspires me and to see beautiful women like them make a difference in the lives of their viewers is motivation. One day I hope and pray to be a positive asset to a community just like them.<br />
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Ever since 2008 I knew what my journey was going to entail... not the specifics BUT I had an idea. I am currently living it and of course it is harder and taking way longer than I thought.<br />
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How long do I wait? You know there comes a point when you have to be realistic with yourself and make a grown up decision... and sad to say I don't know what plan B is, haven't quite figured that out. I can't do a 9 to 5 job that would have me doing the EXACT SAME THING EVERY D*MN (excuse me) DAY! No thank you, I am not interested.<br />
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Honestly, my favorite thing about news is that it's ALWAYS something different. It feels good to be able to go to work, complete a task and not have to think about the same thing over again. Unless its a continuing (developing) story but even with that there are new details! If nothing new comes about it gets pushed to the side. Nobody wants to hear the same news every day! GIVE ME SOMETHING NEW!<br />
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So yes yesterday, today and possibly tomorrow will be not so great days but it gets like that sometimes, I guess. I tell the little voice inside of me thanks because whatever it is, its powerful because it keeps me going!Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508716547297014765.post-69784844012914371762011-03-25T15:03:00.000-07:002011-03-25T15:03:40.504-07:00#1 ~ Day 1 ~ My written BeginningThis is my FIRST BLOG EVER!!!!! I have wanted to start a blog for a VERY long time but wasn't sure, when? The title of my 1st blog is significant for me... in many ways this is a new beginning for me and I must admit I'm excited :)<br />
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A very special & influential person in my life has told me since 2005:<br />
<blockquote><strong><span style="color: black;">"They may not know your name today, but your going to let them know what your name is! Who are you??"</span></strong></blockquote>Since I was 9 years old I have wanted to pursue a career in journalism. At that moment it was probably for ALL OF THE WRONG reasons but as I grew & matured that thought turned into a passion. I have done a number of things to connect me with the right people and they have and still do guide me through this <em>journey. </em><br />
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My Name Is: <strong>Ashley Renee Connor</strong><br />
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<strong>May 2, 2009</strong> - A day I will NEVER forget! My graduation from Clarion University of PA<br />
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The biggest dream for students majoring in broadcast journalism is once they graduate from college is to land their first on-air job, for many that's not the case. Including me! With a number of things going against me along with some mistakes I made that wasn't my reality. First thought? What they heck am I going to do? GET A JOB!!!! <br />
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My first job out of college had NOTHING to do with my degree!!! I was a case manager for a non-profit organization and I landed the job because they needed someone with a bachelors degree for the position & that I did have! In my brain I am the first to say, <em>everything happens for a reason</em>. While working at this job the company had an annual gala, in preparation for this event I noticed some Pittsburgh "celebrities" were going to be in attendance! ME still having a passion for NEWS noticed a specific on-air talent attending. I told the event planner, "I'm bringing my resume to this event." Of course he told me NO but in my head I knew I was going to have a conversation with this person and see what was going to come about :) <br />
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The day comes and I am getting dressed up for the nights gala, themed an evening in Paris. Very nice event! As the evening plays out I spot the person that had the words I needed to hear! Ironically I pass him by & he recognizes me!!! I literally felt weak because I needed this moment to go in my favor! He needed me to refresh his memory of how he knew me and I automatically said, "Miss Black Teenage 2005 I won Queen and you were a judge!" He quickly remembered & it was smooth sailing from there on out!! HE gave me his card, I emailed him my resume and on July 19th, 2010 I landed a job at WPXI-TV in Pittsburgh as a Production Assistant. <strong>No</strong> this isn't the exact position that I wanted but since I wanted to pursue this career I was ALWAYS told <strong>"Get your foot in the door, then your arm, then your leg and once your in there STAY!"</strong> Ever since I started here I couldn't be more thankful. I have had the opportunity to meet & work with amazing people as well as some <strike>NOT</strike> so amazing people! "It's the nature of the business". <br />
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I'm currently sending out written resumes, resume DVDs, cover letters and references to as many stations as possible until SOMEONE wants to hire me! I know it's going to come, it is all in patience and prayer! <br />
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<strong>Key Word: NETWORK</strong>Ashley Renee Connorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11136005952556566754noreply@blogger.com2